My First Guilt Trip

So it seems like I am sharing a lot of firsts with you guys, but I guess when you are new to parenting that is just want happens. This week is no exception. (sorry)
While I was pregnant I soaked in everything that I could about parenting. I desperately wanted to be "good" at it and I wanted to learn every lesson from someone elses mistake so that I didn't have to learn it myself. (unrealistic, but yet that is what I wanted). Many moms discussed feeling guilty for not spending enough time with their children or not paying attention to them enough. They also expressed the frustration of not being the best mom that they could be. They wanted to do better, love more, be patient, plan healthier meals, etc. I could understand these feelings logically. I just hadn't experienced them until this week. For the past two (almost three) months Adalyn basically demanded my attention when she needed it and then slept for the rest of the time. I felt no guilt, she was happy and so was I. But this week I have been a little busier than normal, gone more, and paying more attention to other things. By no means was she neglected but she was put in her bouncy seat and swing. A lot. She has been an angel baby so she didn't complain about it, until Friday when we were out running errands and she started to cry. It was a heartbreaking cry, and I realized that she had been in her carseat for 6 HOURS straight! (I even fed her a bottle while she continued to sit in it) We were driving in the car when she started crying so I couldn't pull her out for a little while longer, but I practically begged McKay to drive faster while felt the wave of guilt sweep over me. Welcome to mommyhood I thought. That night I decided to rock her to sleep instead of the normal just lay her in bed routine. She "talked" to me for a while and gave me a few of her darling smiles. I loved it, she is an amazing blessing that I have in my life and I hope that I will always remember that, even during the busy times. I ran across this quote from President Gordon B. Hinkley (always go to his talks when I need a little refocusing, they are so good!)
"Work at our responsibility as parents as if everything in life counted on it, because in fact everything in life does count on it."

Hopefully I can get my priorities straight this coming week, have a good night! (oh and no nothing is wrong with your eyes, I really did dye my hair last week. Love the color, not such a fan of the cut. Grow hair grow.)